I’m really sorry if I have been insensitive over the past few days. I really didn’t mean it, thinking back on what I have done, asked and said, I’m really starting to regret it. I shouldn’t have asked so much. Well, this might have crossed your barriers, I really didn’t mean to. Forgive me will you?

Today has been really slack. Went to school early in the morning for A math lesson, it wasn’t really worth it, after the lesson, I felt so much more confused over remainder theorem. I guess I really need to do more practices in order to be able to master the topic. After that, decided to go home with Kelley. Lunch was cancelled, and shopping at Isetan didn’t make me feel like I really wanted to go.

Well, I came home, ate breakfast, watched TV, and soon, I fell asleep. Then, woke up, ate lunch, then watched more TV, life can’t get any better/worst. I’m kind of feeling guilty now, haven’t started on holiday homework, and many of the people I talked to have already almost finished it, I know I should start on it. But, seeing the amount of homework just puts me off. I guess I’ll just have to get over it, and start doing (!!!) I just bathed, and am here now, I guess this is the kind of life I want for my holidays, but is this really what I deserve? I guess not, well, owing to the fact that I did really horribly for mid-years, I really ought to start revising what I missed out on the last term, maybe SYF just pulled me away from my studies. I know I shouldn’t use SYF as an excuse. The dance girls had their SYF a few days before the exams, it is tougher for them to swap their mindsets, and they have to be consistent throughout the weeks.

Well, then again, maybe it’s because of the fact that I started studying too late. I really ought to be more consistent and not let anything distract me from my studies. It isn’t worth it, not right now. Perhaps deep down inside, I really feel like giving up studies to pursue something I take interests in, like music, like band, like my saxophone. These are stuff that I take much more interest in; in fact, it is the stuff I really like. Guess that’s where my passion is. But I can’t just give up studies now right? I used to be an all A student, but that was back then in primary. I really wish my grades is that good now, then, I’ll be able to attain everything. Impossible it may seem, but I’m going to achieve it, with God. I will trust in him.

Life hasn’t been really promising; I’ve been doing really badly, procrastinating like crazy. Band is what that gives me confidence. The moment I step into the band room, all troubles fade away. Once I take out my saxophone, and start to play a simple tune, it just takes me away from the world. I really love band, the tune I play, after awhile turns into something classier, something jazzier, then the next moment, it turns to rock. The same tune executed in a different manner is able to achieve such great heights. Just a simple tune, played with different feelings, can produce such great miraculous sounds. This is what that gets me really amazed during band. The feeling of achieve such things is really awesome. At first, when I get a really tough piece, or some solo, at first, I’ll at first just give up hope. Now, when I get this kind of pieces, I would know that I can do it, I’ll try really hard, I know I have what it takes to accomplish it, and make the crowd cheer like crazy! I guess it’s for the wonderful performance at the end of all things, the audience cheering with glee, and the smile on the faces, it just makes me feel really accomplished, the results are really worth the hard work. With this in mind, nothing is impossible. Even the impossible seems really possible with the amount of hard work we are going to put in.


Let’s do the impossible!